No more from you..

Everything that I need to know has been resolved. No more questions from me after this. I am satisfied with the overall conclusion. I have never seen a pretense at such a great level. I have never seen myself crying for another woman plea. I am extremely disappointed in myself for hurting another. Overall, I blamed my self for trusting my love ones too much.

It was supposed to be a day of forgiveness. I threw away my ego and seek my apologies from someone. All this while, I have not been a responsible girlfriend. I was too involved in my hectic work lifestyle that I have left someone pending without attention. He was in need of maybe someone to talk to or someone to share a shoulder to cry on. I was indeed not giving any attention to him as I set my priority to my projects and datelines. I did not receive any text message but I received a call instead.

A familiar voice asking me,” Who are you? My wife is beside me”

This silly me thought that I was just a joke. How stupid! Then, that was when I received those hurtful messages on a blissful morning. Hey, I deserved it.

“Kau ni perempuan sundal ke apa?”

“Don’t you know that you are stupid?”

My replied to her was, “Maafkan I”

I was thinking, wow, what a great day to begin everything with. I was shaken and I was stuck. I didn’t know what to do. To cry, oh no...I can’t cry because of this…because of this man. No way! I keep up my fake smiles at Nenek’s place as all I wanted to do was to be alone. Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku sungguh kerdil di hadapanmu! Forgive me!

I do not want anyone to know about it until I called her and she told me everything. I was shattered. Now, my every detailed question has been answered. My reoccurring dream explained it too. I have never seen my brother so pissed off before. My brother was there for me. I ensure Twee that i was fine. Indeed, it made me stronger. It's a great learning point which i will always remember in life.

How can a wife not know what has the husband been doing all this while with another woman? What a great liar! You have fooled almost everyone. If you are reading this, I just want you to know that I hate you…. Don’t you ever see me again cause I fucking hate you!

Bliss...

What to expect when you are meeting someone for the first time after more than 14 years? There were too much things to catch up on. Gossips, life, career, family and those little things...that made you smile....

I miss the old days.....

Archiekins...

Aida and Azhari was super sweet to send a bag of Archie comics for me to read...aww...it does made me laugh...thanks both of you...

Now that examinations are over, i have all the time in the world to finish up my reading and not forgetting...Zoom zoom..im a few steps away ...Nana Li...where are you?

Are you still taking it with me?

Merindukanmu....

Selama aku masih bisa bernafas
Masih sanggup berjalan
Ku kan slalu memujamu
Meski ku tak tau lagi
Engkau ada di mana
Dengarkan aku ku merindukanmu

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i4DYoLSz

Fb0

Bukan aku tak cinta...

My Hectic and Chewy Friday

It was a hectic Friday especially when all the execs were out onsite and my Manager was at customer place too. There were too much testing to be done for me. Testing was being done on all the web tools. This was because of Project Galopp. Hmm! I almost had a major breakdown especially when I had to source for my own solution. What a stressful situation to be in, especially when you are fasting!

Thanks to Sir Galopp, I had to be in the office early in the morning to do my testing. As I galloped my way to work, (psst…I prefer taking the bas nowadays even though I have the monthly transport allowance) my movement had been restricted by some unseen forces. It left me feeling so stupid and dumb with everyone’s eyes on me, staring straight at the lady. Damn! Whatever! The moment I reached the office, I immediately docked in my laptop. What a shame! Some applications are still down despite the rollout! So what do I do now? Send email to escalate ticket to E4! It’s better to give an overseas call.

I was practically seated in front of the laptop for the whole of Friday. Finally, I had it when I received an overseas call saying that there was no solution for the current situation. Most amazing, they requested to close the E4 ticket. Very funny huh!

After lunch, another major impact to my brain. All the web tools pickup and bookings are not going through to the dispatch team. OMG! This is so fucked up! What would you do if you are in my place? I had too many missed calls….come on use your initiative to resolve the issue. Phew…luckily…I managed to solve the issue. Somehow I knew that I will be late for break fast…and yes indeed. I managed to leave the office at about 1845hrs after ensuring with dispatch team that everything was back to normal. I sprinted back home ….oh yeah…not a single cab.

I reached home feeling super hungry. “Eda, why are you late?” That’s my so called caring brother asking me.

There was so much food on the table in the living room. From “kuih-muih” to “murtabak” to “bubur masjid”.

“Tadi Abang Bazaar sends the food here. Abang Bazaar passes me cigarettes too you know”

Oh, so that’s the reason on why I received 2 missed calls from him. So Twee, did you thank him for all the food? Thanks for the food Bazaar! Appreciate it….

So there you had it, after a long and tiring day at work, I reached home smiling looking at Twee’s antics boasting about the cigarette that he received. And not forgetting looking at the fat hamster enjoying its food too…puasa ke tu copot? Hahaha….

Can you see it?